Still Me, Right?

As I walk down the halls of my small school it seems like every person has their eyes on me. Days ago I made the biggest mistake of my life. I had sex.

In my town, you couldn't keep a secret if you tried with all your might. Somehow word gets out. I felt so dirty walking down the halls. Like I was an entirely different person. I kept thinking to myself "Aren't I still the same person?" I couldn't help but cry.

I had lost my virginity to the wrong guy.  I had just hooked up with the boy because I had gotten my heart broken and I was in need of a little comfort. He promised me comfort I had been needing.

The night started out innocent just a few kisses, some talking, also a little touching, but nothing I was really concerned about. Then the night took a drastic turn and I agreed. I must have been out of my mind.

I want to break up with him, but I like him some too. I want to still go out with him, just not have any more sex. I am so confused. I'm currently going through a depression, but I'm slowly getting better. A few trusted friends have been helping me and offering me advice.

Here I am; crying over something I can't change, regretting what I've done, and although I'm no longer a virgin, I'M TABOO!